|added Mon March 14 2005 at 7:41 AM
|I'm just going to be brief on this, and possibly I'll elaborate more as I feel like writing down the road. Last thursday night, I broke things off with Chrissy. I know, it was incredibly short, but something just wasn't right. I'm sure there's a combination of several things, but it all boils down to "it didn't feel right." For now, I won't even bother trying to explain anything more.
Right now, I am trying to balance the high-wire of retaining a friendship with her (because she really is an awesome person), without leading her to believe "we" could be again, and without allowing me to fall back into "us" without careful thought, consideration, and-- frankly-- heart-felt prayer. About all that I can say that will make any sense to most people is that it didn't feel right, and that the decision to not be with her still feels like the right decision three or four days later.
Jo-Pete is back on the normal girl-hunt. I do have two or three girls that I am specifically interested in. Yes, there are pictures of all of them, but I'm not going to be so bold as to say who they are in a public setting (especially since this time tomorrow, this could become *very* public as I post the pictures from AWE and send the link to all who attended). I don't think that my problem was fear of commitment. In fact, I still hold that I would be perfectly happy to settle down with one girl. I never had a chance to "fall" for Chrissy like I do with most girls... there was no period between discovering I could be interested and actually being together to explore the feeling. The sad reality is that maybe I was in love with the feeling of being loved.
|added Mon March 14 2005 at 7:43 AM
|But NOT YET!
I did do a quick preliminary sort last night. about 90% of the pictures are just "okay," but in reality the purpose of these pictures was more to document an event rather than to make art. I believe I may have succeeded at thoroughly documenting at the very least the dance at the end of AWE.
Pictures will be posted this evening, and I will give more information on organization at that time.
|added Mon March 14 2005 at 6:27 PM
|Okay, they're actually only mediocre pictures, but I couldn't resist the play on words. This past weekend was All New England Winter Extravaganza 2005, which is somehow abbreviated to AWE. It was definitely worth the trip to New Hampshire and back, for the food, fun, and friends. Naturally, I took my camera with me, and many of you saw me carrying it around playing the paparazzo.
Feel free to download and save any of the pictures I took over the weekend. If there are any pictures that you would be interested in having in a larger format (3504x2336 compared to the 640x480 posted online), please let me know (or leave a comment with your email). If you know how to check the name of the picture you want, that would be helpful in getting it back to you, but if not, just explain which picture, and where you found it. I am not doing this for pay, or even asking for donation. I honestly just like taking pictures and know that some people like looking at them. Feel free to leave any comments, although I will not be accepting critical advice for any of these pictures, because I already have been very clear that they are not my best work. Just something fun to share with everybody.
Enough rambling, on to the pictures!
Arrival at AWE
Just hanging out after lunch
The storm rages on
Setting up 1 2
Waiting for dinner
Waiting for dinner 2
The Dance 1