|I'd say sorry for being so vague with the previous post, but I'm really *not* sorry. I like to keep you guys on your toes;).
Chrissy (a.k.a. Girl) is a native of West Hartford. I'll admit to the slight awkwardness of her being liking me first. We met at institute, and I initially brushed off the hugs and such as her just being a flirty girl, because she was like that with a lot of guys. I still knew, though, that it wasn't *just* her being friendly (although that was naturally part of it), so I wasn't surprised when our first phone conversation took the twist of her being interested in me.
I do believe I thoroughly confused that poor girl during the first phone conversation. I started out with a very firm "not interested" stance-- you should all be familiar with the phrase "just friends." After talking for a while-- two, maybe three hours later-- I realized that I could be interested her. I was hesitant, though, that I fell for this girl on the phone, and that I wouldn't have any interest in person. I agreed to pick her up for FHE the next evening, and the rest, as they say, is history.
I'll be honest that sometimes the misbalance of interest (she is still more interested than I am) scares me that maybe I just love being loved more than anything else. When I talk to her, though, I can't help feeling that I connect to her much more. She does have a past (by anybody's definition), but that almost makes me more interested. Not just because of the whole "bad girl" thing, but because I feel comfortable about my own shortcomings (of which there are many).
As for length of commitment (yes, I am committed to her), I don't know. I do know that I will be going to Utah in August/September, and that she has to stay in Connecticut. Because I've never been in a relationship that lasted longer than that anyway, I'm just going to play it by ear. I gave her my ring, I gave her my heart, we'll play the rest by ear.