|added Thu May 06 2004 at 9:11 PM
|To sleep, perchance to dream.
Not because I'm tired, but because it makes everything go away. If I can manage to fall asleep, them I float in blissful nothingness. Even bad dreams fly by and make the time go faster. Even bad dreams are better than being awake.
"I don't care," I said. And the sad reality is that I don't. Not at all. it's almost difficult to care about the fact I don't care. I tried to get out, to go somewhere and do something so that I wouldn't feel alone, but that didn't work. Nobody returned my phone calls. It's said that Spring and Summer are the most social times to be at BYU, but somehow I'm not feelin it tonite. Yeah, there have been a couple get-togethers, but I'm invited to the en mass, and I don't think anybody really cares if I show up or not.
I just wanna go to sleep... unfortunately, I don't think sleep is going to come for a long time...