|added Mon March 08 2004 at 4:58 PM
For weeks, it's been teasing me, here for a day, gone again the next. There's been a feeling in the air that we're almost there. And yesterday, it came with the hardest hit yet.
Golden morning, birds chirping, bright sun, nice cool breeze. I did what any self-respecting student would do (even though I'm not always a self-respecting student, but that's another story). After sacrament meeting let out, I went outside and lay on the hill north of the library. Sunday school couldn't possibly have tought me more than what I learned with my chance to lay there and think. For that 45 minutes, everything just fit together. And I was happy.
I decided to go to priesthood, since that's where they take attendance, and I am tied for the lowest attendance in the Elder's Quorum. After that, I came home, put on some tunes, and laid under my kitchen window in the sunshine. Praises be for wireless headphones.
That was before my entire mood crashed. The rest of yesterday was completely lost.
But today, the sun came back again for an encore appearance. I've already been having a hard time concentrating on school, adding sunshine doesn't make that any easier. So again, after classes were done, I laid out my blanket under the window and put on some music. I don't know if I was asleep or not when Ciera stopped by to talk to me. I wouldn't have heard her with my music on even if I was awake.
The only downside is that now I have a headache, probably from the sun shining in my eyes. It's ironic, really, that the same thing that makes me so happy also hurts.