|added Tue February 17 2004 at 10:45 PM
|Sadly, I'm looking forward to Thursday's appointment with the doctor. I really can't stand feeling like this. I didn't get anything done today, combination of feeling sad/depressed, and anxiety attacks. I gave up on my homework and came home and did a whole lot of nothing.
Inactivity, in case you hadn't realized, is not really my favorite thing. Sure, I enjoy playing computer games, but I'd rather be with people or at least be doing something productive on my computer. There are, of course, exceptions. I do enjoy playing for a day here and there, but I hate the feeling that there isn't anything else I can do (right).
I'm not on a very good trend for school (understatement of the day). I almost convinced myself that I don't care about the grades, but I think that might be in self-defense as much as anything else. I'm cruising for a couple more C's this semester. I don't think I've ever missed as many homework assignments as this semester. All in all, not a good sign.
And here I sit at 11:40. I should have been in bed an hour ago, since I've been so tired today. Yet somehow, by the time that 9:00 comes around, I don't feel like sleeping anymore. All day, I've wanted nothing more than to lay down and sleep, and now, although exhausted, I'm not really tired.
I just hope I don't *have* to retake any of my classes. At this point, there's not much chance that I'll retake it to improve my GPA. I'd really rather just keep moving and have a chance of getting out of here eventually.
I don't know exactly what the doctor will be able to do, but hopefully by the end of this semester we can find *something*. I'm tired of this.