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    I had almost forgotten  echo $newRAM;
    added Sat November 15 2003 at 12:17 PM
    Walking down the road, arm around her waist. Pull her in close and enjoy the feeling of being together.

    Change of scenery

    Sitting together, talking about something. I don't think that it was important what we were talking about, but I remember something about her family. It's entirely possible that I'm making up the details as I go, but as I said, the topic of conversation is not a critical dimension. One thing I do remember for sure was when she put her head on my shoulder.

    Change of scenery (again, but this time not quite so abrupt)

    Still sitting together. I've just kissed her forehead. It seems like she said something, but I don't remember exactly what it was. Whatever it was, it wasn't what she said as much as the way she said it that made me kiss her.

    And she kissed me back.

    I had almost forgotten the whole scene. I sat there talking with my roommate, pretending that I don't have anything to do today. Then in the middle of our conversation, the whole thing hit me again. And in about a second, I remembered the whole thing.

    Let me tell ya, it was a lot more fun in my dream than the bittersweet reality that the dream will never come true.

    Superstar (AKA freedom?)  echo $newRAM;
    added Sat November 15 2003 at 2:49 PM
    I hope this means that my addiction has come to an end.

    I don't know why a couple weeks ago, I decided to check out MSN games. I knew going into it that I have had a problem before with being addicted to that site. I guess that I was just bored and wanted a couple quick games.

    Unfortunately, a couple games turned into a couple weeks of not being able to do anything without thinking about Bejewelled. I would see tiles on the floor and picture a pattern of jewels and see what would happen if I switched two tiles. I would hear that awful chinking sound any time there was silence. I would find myself sitting in front of the computer at strange times of the night clicking away as I tried to beat my high score. All the while, I knew that it was crazy and that I needed to stop. Knowing and doing are two different things.

    Over a week ago, I got a five star level in Bejewelled, and was horrified to find that there was another mark to reach: Superstar level. Part of what drove me to click next every time was that I wanted to get that superstar.for three days, my best score was only 200 short of the superstar (36810 vs 37000). Every time was "the time"... the last time I would play that stupid mind-altering game. Each time, I would click next game and hope that this time would be "the time"... the time that I finally crossed that threshold score to be a superstar player.

    And at last, it has been done. And I hope that this makes me free from the terrible bondage known as