|added Fri February 28 2003 at 11:11 PM
|Another friday night, come and gone... alas, I feel that it was a complete waste...
A waste of nine dollars, too... There was a big dance/party thing at the Wilk tonite, and I originally went with a couple girls that I know. After they took off, I went home, and then Josh called and said that he and a group of friends were heading over to it... I figured it was better than staying at home all night. Turns out not by much. Maybe because I really wanted to be with the other two girls that had ditched out.. maybe because it was a group of five guys, no girls... maybe because I was in a really whiny, stupid mood... whatever the reason, it was pretty lame. I wandered around a bit, danced a bit, watched people having fun a bit, wished I was with somebody else a bit, and then came home...
So that's my Friday night... pretty typical of me... Thinking that I'm going to spend the evening with some great girl, and then for whatever reason it doesn't work out... and I'm left wondering "what?". "What am I going to do now?", "What do I have to do to get to pay attention?" "what's my problem... I should just suck it up and deal with it..." In the end, the way I feel isn't gonna change the way she treats me... In the end, my attitude hurts nobody but myself...
Sorry for such a depressing entry... happy days will come again... and hopefully by then, I'll be out having too much fun to notice them.